SILHOUETTE MACHINE GUEST GIVEAWAY!!!!

SILHOUETTE MACHINE GUEST GIVEAWAY!!!!

Before going to bed

Before I go to bed I am excited to say that I have been accepted into the swap. I have also copied the pattern from the Burda Magazine and now I just have to start it. My daughter picked a very nice teal colored fabric and it has a nice drape. It is a good fabric to start with. I haven't felt well and finally starting to get back into real life and want to get started sewing again.
I can't believe how I felt when I saw the x at Collingswood. Who would have thought? I only saw him in a distance and then I saw his car. I was rendered into a state of total fear. I didn't know what to do, I just stopped in my steps and R was there but I felt trapped with no where to run. I couldn't even let R know why I had stopped suddenly. Finally he just guided me away from the car and where we had seen him and I could become coherent again. It truly was so frightening. That feeling stayed with me for some time. I didn't want to get out of bed at all or do anything. Then being physically ill on top of that I just couldn't move. I know that Sunday if the kids didn't keep coming in and out of the house I would have been done with it. That feeling of such deep pain. The feeling that I could not and should not go on. It was a dark place again. I hate when I am there. I feel like the pills do absolutely nothing for the PTSD.
I am glad that I can finally get up but I over did today, with sugar that is. Ridiculous, I should know better. So the evening did not end well. Tomorrow is a new day and will try to start life again.
Good night all. 

the elusive yellow dress

I am so excited to have finished the yellow dress and it fits nicely. I've worn it already but need to get pics of it. I have enough fabric left over to make another style dress. Just deciding what will work with the amount of fabric I have left. I keep thinking of the Tara dress from Burda but my husbands says that I need something with a more defined waist in order to not look pregnant but I love the comfort and ease of wear of that style dress. I should show the picture of the Tara dress that I made with the Dress by Friday on Grosgrains blog. I used an old long skirt that I hadn't worn in years but I just loved the fabric and didn't want to waste it.
There are a couple of other things I want to try to match patterns with and have them all over our dining room table. So many thoughts race through my head and then it just bogs down and I get stuck. I am still working with the up and down emotions and hate it! It seems so silly that I am home and have the fabric and time to make what ever I would like and I am in essence stuttering. Well, I am going to force myself to do some work. I had started making Silly Bandz holder, a couple of finger pin cushions and just all that fabric that is waiting to become something.
"One step in front of the other and soon I will be walking out the door!"

Swap for All Seasons

I have taken the first step to participate in an online swap. I hope that I am accepted.

trying hard

I have finished the dresses that I was working on and now I am going to finish the elusive yellow dress. I don't know why it is so hard to do. I think that it is because it was the first thing that I wanted to sew. It is cut out, sewn, and now I am working on the hem. I am getting kind of excited because if I can conquer this then I will start to work on some simple dresses and attempt to finish the yellow caftan. I have it all pinned but not sure how to stitch it together. Oh yes and that romper that is pinned on the dress form. I know what I want something to look like but I still do not know how to make it work. I will have to post the pictures of the finished dresses. I am proud of them and should show that I have finished them.

I had the best time when my sister and niece were here. We did so much together. It was great. I felt like I was in a whirl wind and oddly when I didn't sew I had anxiety. So we made monsters. I made one with my niece and one for my g-baby. My niece turned 25 and for her b-day we went to Hoboken and went to Carlos Bakery. My sister ordered a cake and then we went for lunch. I will have to write about the things we did and post some of the pictures. Best of times! I pray that I will be able to make it to Florida to surprise my mom for her birthday.
Good Night

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