I am a mom of older children and have noticed that the time has come when I do not have the hustle and bustle of little ones constantly around my feet and life now seems to be a bit of a let down. Well life has changed and now I have more hustle and bustle then ever. I am the Grammy Nanny to my 3 grandsons.
I was savoring the time that was mine and now have to share it with everyone all over again. The growing pains are upon me again and trying to define who I am again. The upside is that I get to cuddle little ones again! I still haven't truly learned to hug myself yet nor to be understanding to my own feelings. Did anyone notice how hard it is to be nice and understanding to yourself? That being said I hope that you will be part of my journey into yet another part of my life.

Monday, October 25, 2010

being sick sucks

I had an ok day, which was beautiful I might add. But as the day went on I didn't feel so good till every part of my body started to hurt by the time I picked up my husband I thought I was going to throw up and could barely drive. I now have a 100.9 degrees. I am a big baby.

Today was starting out well, I got 12 of my match boxes completed. YEAH!! That feels so good. Unfortunately I really feel like I sabotage myself but I guess I can't count getting sick. I am actually going to post pictures.

Well this is it for now. Am going to become mindless on Face Book.
Night all.

Monday, October 11, 2010

another day

Tomorrow I work. Yeah! I have to be there at 6:30 am.
I am also working on making matchbox shadow boxes. This is for the Swap for All Seasons. I am liking this. I am using rubber stamps and water coloring the images. I then cut them out and leave tabs on the bottoms of the images so I can give the images dimension. I like that I am getting creative again. The stamps I am using are very tiny. The biggest is the height of the matchbox otherwise they are small enough to put several in the box and stagger them so they have dimension. I have about 18 ready to glue together but I really want to paint the boxes and tops with white spray paint to give the boxes a finished look. I posted some of the box pics on face book. I really have to get them in the mail by Wednesday. I went back to the blog and she said that she is waiting on 54 more sets, mine being one of them. I can't wait to get mine in the mail.
I have not been sewing again witch is frustrating. I still have not even finished cutting out E's teal dress from the Burda Patterns. I also need to make some casual clothes that I can wear for work. I want to look nice and still be warm when the weather changes. I am really not a sweat pant kind of person. It sucks a little bit because I have skirts galore that I like. I also need to make some tops as well button up shirts aren't going to completely cut it. I want something more comfy and cute. The other sucky part of dress for work is that no heels are allowed. You know it is dangerous to drive in heels. :op
Well I am going to once again to be more diligent in blogging and also to be more positive. I love reading all the blogs that are around and the reason I am reading the ones that I am is because they are sharing the things that they love and are positive about what they are doing. So that is what I need to do. I do not want to take any more pills, I don't feel that they are truly making a difference in how I am feeling right now. I am done with them. I also don't want to pay the 60 bucks for them. I feel that it is more important to make sure my kids get what they need more. Speaking of witch, Z is back at school and he is selling Cutco knives for some extra cash. Not sure if that is going to go to well but he is trying and he has a plan that would coincide with his degree.
R is doing ok as well but I just never know really what is going on. She is staying at the college and is becoming active in different types of exercise.
E is doing ok but again I don't trust how I think because I didn't see what was happening the first time.
The older E is doing ok as well. C is the most adorable little baby in the world, not that I am biased or anything. He has a contagious laugh that just melts a heart. So glad I get to enjoy him.
Well that is enough for me right now. I am going to actually download the pics from the cam and possibly even post them!
Have a good night rest all.